are we here yet?

funny, all this free time and no thoughts to type. nothing to say just sit and stare at the screen. mabey I'll just keep typing until I can think of something. no I think I'll just say I miss being in a band, rocking out and giving my all on stage. It's so fun, what a blast! I t's all I can do to think of it, it's been so long. I hung out with Phinn to day for the first time in years, it was great, I missed him. He said him and the rest of the guys are going to beat the rock back into me. Awesome. I've petered out over the past five years, my fire is gone. Even for the Lord. I guess that would seem scary but I know God doesn't give up on me, even when I do. I am so ready for life to move on but it just goes by instead. Funny, EH? how that whole thing works out. I am really starting to feel my age now, with all the old gang being married and having kids and all, man I want a wife so bad. It'll get better, this too shall pass. But of course ,when, is the real question, God knows. What do I do? I don't know......................it seems so easy to read this but it's funnyhow it is real and not a story you read. The scarriest part about all I've said is that it is so cliche, so said already, nothing new under the sun. Strange how hard it is for a man to admit he's scared. well I'm here and I am. To be continued...