it's waking the sense of soul longing
whenever i get inside my head for too long I lose the capacity to hear. not audibly but internally, spiritualy. I just want and want and think and think and get myself into a tizzy about what it is I'm thinking about. the companion thing is one of those deals. mabey I'm not as bad as I might sound and mabey I'm not as depressed as I think I am. all in all I am still lonely, but like you said Leslie, I should make the Lord my focus.....again. It seems I have taken too much of an interest in the things I want and not the things of the Spirit.
I have to once again set my mind on things above and not the things of the flesh. Man, the whole walking with God thing is always simple but rarely easy. Ozzy Chambers says that the "setting" of the mind is our responsibility and as soon as we do God does the changing of it, or at least that's what i recall he says.....from memory. The idea is all there but I can't type it out quite right. Geez, things are way better when you focus on God.
Hey, thanks for those of you who have prayed for me in the past and present! "Good on ya!" :) (That expresion has always been so funny to me, it cracks me up every time I say it. It sounds so arrogant or something. Like I'm the holder and master of "good" so when I feel someone does something right or good I bestow my good on them. So I really only say it with my tongue firmly placed against my cheek.) But I really am emensly greatful for the prayers, I have needed them.
Mabey I will be fine after all.
I have to once again set my mind on things above and not the things of the flesh. Man, the whole walking with God thing is always simple but rarely easy. Ozzy Chambers says that the "setting" of the mind is our responsibility and as soon as we do God does the changing of it, or at least that's what i recall he says.....from memory. The idea is all there but I can't type it out quite right. Geez, things are way better when you focus on God.
Hey, thanks for those of you who have prayed for me in the past and present! "Good on ya!" :) (That expresion has always been so funny to me, it cracks me up every time I say it. It sounds so arrogant or something. Like I'm the holder and master of "good" so when I feel someone does something right or good I bestow my good on them. So I really only say it with my tongue firmly placed against my cheek.) But I really am emensly greatful for the prayers, I have needed them.
Mabey I will be fine after all.
posted by Jason at 10:21 PM
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ah depression, annoying isn't it? it's autumn here, and as much i love autumn, i always hate it too; it's when the depression begina anew....at elast i have the assurance that it will let up sometime between february and may....hmmmmm....wow, that seems so far away. i will pray for you jason, because i know how miserable inward pain can be.
and the phrase "good on ya" -- i don't really get it myself. the first time i remember hearing it, was said by aunt while preping for my sisters wedding. my aunt used the phrase repeatedly, and it annoyed the heck out of me. :)
hey i am in public and almost laughing aloud as i think about "good on ya". ive always found it funny to be heard, but not put much real thought into it. AWESOME fun you brought that up jason - sorry to distract from the content of the blog, but good on ya for dissecting 'good on ya' a lil bit.
I remember hearing that phrase for the first time by a jock in high school. He was one of those jocks that had an ego the size of Texas and he was saying it for real as if he was the "Holder of Good" . It was so funny! I said it a bit while in CO but I think it wasn't appropriate or something, no one laughed. I cracked up as I always do when it's a joke I think is funny and I tell it.
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