the only one who knows is the One Who Knows
how is it that passion and desire can be overwhelming at times that they seem to almost burst out of your chest? How is it, that, with that intensity and excitment they can be overshot by mere mediocrity and complacency? How is it I can have dreams and wishes so strong that I cannot imagine a life without them and to have them as yet not even close to realization? how come I can't have what I want? how come this whole aging thing is so subtle and escapes notice? how is it that no one can come and make these things materialize? has music lost it's power? has passion and eagerness vanished? have I lost my mind or am I seeing things as they are? are there too many questions in the world that i just blend in with them all and am just noise along with the rest? can it be that all of my dreams and wishes for life are just echoes of other peoples' from generations past. There truely is nothing new under the sun. wait a little longer and you will see someone with the same desires.
rant and rave I do. complain I do, care I do, live I do, love I do, mabey next time around.........there won't be a next time, this is it. I have heard it said "seize the day" I've always wondered how. is it a conscious thing? or a state? "Make the most of life", how? "smell the flowers" I know I can do that, I've been doing that too much.
"prepare yourself for service" was said to me by an older brother in christ. I asked him what does that mean? What do I do to preapare myself, on a daily basis going to work, school, home, what things do i do? He had no answer. It was a phrase he said a lot but never really carried it out to it's logical, practical application. The sentiment was understood and appreciated but the end was still disillusionment.
The irony is that a lot of my loony thoughts and feelings have a simple answer but I seem to like to wallow. I am a fool sometimes. How many people does it take for foolishness to become wise and ok? (that's a scary question!!) I like asking questions about everything i can, so don't be frightened by them. Without quetions we would be animals.
When thoughts arrive I express them. I really like this whole medium.
rant and rave I do. complain I do, care I do, live I do, love I do, mabey next time around.........there won't be a next time, this is it. I have heard it said "seize the day" I've always wondered how. is it a conscious thing? or a state? "Make the most of life", how? "smell the flowers" I know I can do that, I've been doing that too much.
"prepare yourself for service" was said to me by an older brother in christ. I asked him what does that mean? What do I do to preapare myself, on a daily basis going to work, school, home, what things do i do? He had no answer. It was a phrase he said a lot but never really carried it out to it's logical, practical application. The sentiment was understood and appreciated but the end was still disillusionment.
The irony is that a lot of my loony thoughts and feelings have a simple answer but I seem to like to wallow. I am a fool sometimes. How many people does it take for foolishness to become wise and ok? (that's a scary question!!) I like asking questions about everything i can, so don't be frightened by them. Without quetions we would be animals.
When thoughts arrive I express them. I really like this whole medium.
posted by Jason at 8:49 PM
9 Comments:
a lot easier for my to say than anytone to carry out - but it is true, jason: read the bible, and things within you will change, wisedom and understanding will arrive along with thoughts. commit to doing it, and do it, and dont stop even if it is useless or not sinking in.
also PLEASE get rid of your "google news" and "edit me" links on the sidebar, they drive me bananas.
I don't know how to remove them. I don't know HTML at all. If you tell me how I will.
ok so i changed my template to fix the links but nothing happened. we might have to just cope with the stupid links. my expertise is lacking in these matters. sorry
nevermind the last comment, I'mjust retarded
where is my link? i feel unloved :(
okay, i'm over it :)
jason i TOLD YOU one time over the phone how to do it. go into the template html, scroll down like 80-90% of the way, find the links. then either replace the urls with real ones and change the wording to correlate, or else JUST DELETE them. it drives me mad and i dont know why.
i like this template for your blog, though, dont go to such lengths as to change it, it suits! but if you want to you have to republish the index in order for anyhting to take.
kaylen your next, I just ran out of time earlier today
Leslie, i hope it's up to your standard now. ....I actually am really happy that I changed it too.
THANK YOU JASON! love it
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