whoa!

man, I am so selfish. It says a lot about me when my biggest "idol", Bono cares more about those hurting and suffering in other countries than I do. I have looked "up" to U2 since I was 11 and still, they rock my world. Bono uses his fame and influence to influence world leaders to take action against poverty, aids, hunger, third world debt, etc. I am startled at my apparent lack of compassion all of a sudden. My life is made up of work, sleep, music, beer, movies, internet, sleep, work, etc. I have dreams and desires for a future in the music or movie industry, with a possible ministry but it's all becoming terrifingly out of my reach. I have always feared doing nothing with my life and now I feel a bit like it has been "nothing" that has dominated my mind, heart, thoughts, life. Oh boy am I scared!!! This is a snap decision blog, I'm sure my fear will subside, but woooo boy is it a jolt of adrenaline