Whirlwind.

So begins a new world and adjustment within. I still have to fight my laziness and desire to do nothing. I almost feel guilty about not doing much, though i do NOT want to go back. I also still don't know if this is what God wants me to do, I just feel like if I don't do something I will die an old man who has bagged 1,000,000 bags of groceries and said the words "paper" and "plastic" just as many times.
Having spent some time with someone from the music industry, today I can see my limitations and weaknesses in talent. Though he does say I can do it if I stick with it. My voice is my biggest weakness right now, that I will work on. I don't want to talk about my future too much 'cause it always seems to not happen the more I talk about whatever it is. But for the fall I still am not sure about where to go. PLease Pray for me there.
I fight nervousness pretty consciously and never really pray about it too much....a mistake, I know. I have to keep my head clear or I just sit and do nothing pretty regularly. I am scared. I am determined. I am not sure except that I'm sure I'm doing it. What a whirlwind!