It's ME

So my silence is probably a little unerving after that last blog, but I have been enjoying the best vacation in Maine I think I ever have. It'll be the last vacation with my sister Holly indefinetely as she is moving to Texas on Wed.. It was awesome!!!
About the NYFA I'm all set to go I just need somwhere to stay in Manhatten pretty soon, it happens a week from today. but this'll have to do for now....I'm un packing.

insides

my eyes have burned a hole in my soul. my silence has put a hole in my spirit that has left me dry. the living water I have poured on the ground. all for my own pleasure and whim. the things I knew are hard to even recall. they seem like echoes that I can't make out. It's like a reverb fully decayed so it's only the overtones and the residual frequencies the you never hear anyway. I wish I could turn back time, how cliche, but then that's how cliches get started. "time took time away" how ironic, how profound how unnecissary how true how unexpected. God you are God no matter where we are, what mess I'm in please lead me out, I'm weary, worn out, lost. how is it God that I know the Way yet choose my way? all I want is peaceand joy andmusic and praise and You and love and openess, Truth, Life, goodness, you know me God what am I doing? free me Lord!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How blessed are you in al Your ways. Your imagination is beyond comprehesion, beyond anything in creation, well duh, I guess you made, huh? The Lord be with all you readers :)

mac daddy

well I'm on my new mac!! It's so cool looking, all silver and retro. Well, not real retro, in that case it would be huge, but it's not. I'm still gettint familiar with the whole system but all goes well.

what?

it's funny, I was thinking about the name of my blog and the frequency of when I actually type something, when you put the 2 together it makes it seem like I don't think but every few days. :) Of course this is not true, I think about a great many things. Not all of them are blog-worthy or even speach worthy and now I've forgotten what I was going to say.
Well anyway, I'm accepted into NYFA but of course there's always one more thing. I have to send a copy of my Diploma. Oh yeah and I need a place to stay too.
I am super siked about my Mac it'll be here wed or thurs. We leave for Maine on Sat and I'm gonna get Final Cut Express right before we go so I can learn the program a bit before going to NY. Thats an editing software that you can make movies on. End.

well, I'm waiting for the acceptance letter from NYFA and that'll be the green or red light for the music video class. I'm getting kinda siked for. I REALLY hope it works out, I really want to direct and I want to make money ! a.k.a. a living on it. Buying a mac tonight, cramming how to use it in three weeks because thats what they use at NYFA. I'm happy about the new computer it'll be my own!! gotta go buying it.

so begins a life opened up

Thus, I will share what comes and goes...