new song

Here are my new lyrics to the new song with my band. We are getting good, i can't wait for someone else to hear us.
This song is about a girl that I like that has no idea that I like her, except maybe the flirting. She's a teller at the bank in the store.
It's called "Is That You?"
"You sit there, unaware
Smiling, feeling alive
I cannot
Believe how
I can't shake you

Is that you?

Oh God, tell me now
will I be undone
if I give in to this?

Who are you now?
Are you the one that I can see?
Can I take
You for your word?
Or can I take you out?
Ever forever keeps calling to me,
Wanting the one to arrive.
Seeing you there
Doesn't compare
To knowing for sure.

Is that you?

Oh God, tell me now
Will I be undone
If I give in to this?

the home stretch

well good news!! After having fled from southern Beirut my cousin and her family went to a convent in the mountains, where she got call from the US embassy that she could go to the coast and get picked up either by helicopter or boat. So I think now she is in cyprus, meaning safe.
In other news, our band is starting to sound good, I can't wait to get good enough to play out.

mid-east

Anybody remember reading my blog about my thoughts on 2006? I have felt for several years that this year, 2006, we would see things leading up to or being end times stuff. I have a cousin and her kids in Beirut right now. She is still fine but has been listening to the bombings only blocks or a mile away. They can't leave the country because the airport is destroyed.
And I just read that the hezbola just bombed Nazareth. Things are heating up.

things to think about

I've been having these thoughts about life and our awareness of ourselves and time. I've been thinking about the fact we never "feel" different as we age. I don't mean physically, I mean emotionally and mentally, we always feel like we do at the moment. Perhaps my putting it into words doesn't comunicate it aptly, but i will continue nonetheless.
As I age I never "feel" like I am aging. I can never tell or feel like I am maturing, yet others around me say that am or have. I have also told friends that they have matured, healed, grown, etc. and they have responded with either surprise or with embarassed encouragment. Which has led me to wonder about our sense of time, aging, growth, etc. .
Are we meant to sense our own growth? Are supposed feel our own maturing? It seems like if we were meant to sense these things God would allow us to. Plus, because time passes and our sense of feeling never changes, yet our body ages and we do actually change and mature, it has become more and more clear to me that our spirits, who we are, is truely eternal and not affected by time. It seems as though sin, which brought about death and decay, really is the cause of us growing old physically.
Time is such a weird thing. It is all relative to how fast you are going, it is measured by an arbitrary measurement set up by man, yet you can't "feel" it, taste it, see it. You can only see it's effects on things, yet we can only exist in just a sliver of it; the thing we call the present, and cannot move around in it. And we are ONLY ever in the present, as soon as we say "now", "now" is gone, so are we ever REALLY in the present? If we are only ever in the present, the "now", does that mean we are in eternity at this time?