Whirlwind.

So begins a new world and adjustment within. I still have to fight my laziness and desire to do nothing. I almost feel guilty about not doing much, though i do NOT want to go back. I also still don't know if this is what God wants me to do, I just feel like if I don't do something I will die an old man who has bagged 1,000,000 bags of groceries and said the words "paper" and "plastic" just as many times.
Having spent some time with someone from the music industry, today I can see my limitations and weaknesses in talent. Though he does say I can do it if I stick with it. My voice is my biggest weakness right now, that I will work on. I don't want to talk about my future too much 'cause it always seems to not happen the more I talk about whatever it is. But for the fall I still am not sure about where to go. PLease Pray for me there.
I fight nervousness pretty consciously and never really pray about it too much....a mistake, I know. I have to keep my head clear or I just sit and do nothing pretty regularly. I am scared. I am determined. I am not sure except that I'm sure I'm doing it. What a whirlwind!

Allo allo.

I have not totally abandoned my blog, just have not felt like blogging. Some things have cahnged in my life. I have decided to quit my job May 11. I will probably do part time jobs for the catering department. An maybe work a little at the Vinyard I used to work at too.
My idea is to spend the summer working on my music, playing coffee houses and such and playing drums in a band too. Then in the fall do some education thing, do'nt quite know what yet but hopefully musical oriented.
God willing this will happen, if not I'm sure you will hear about it. I do tend to whine a bit.